| Hello all |
[Jun. 13th, 2009|03:05 pm] |
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Hey wow it's been a hell of a long time since i've updated anything in here. Well if y'all don't already know from myspace I happily married. Been married since October 2006. His name is Chris. He is very wonderful! No kids yet, just cats.
Family is doing okay for the most part. Lots of drama....
If you have any question feel free to ask I guess.
"Live. Laugh. Love." |
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| Graduation!! |
[Sep. 2nd, 2006|01:09 am] |
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I did it... i'm graduating!! I passed all my class! I have my associates of applied science in computer networking... 2 more years and I'll my bachelors!! Yep!!! |
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| Damn it's been a long time |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|11:34 am] |
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I didn't realize how long it's been since I've updated on here maybe because I have a myspace now. Well I've been really busy lately with school and work and new kids in the house. My parent's have adopted again. A 16 year old girl and her daughter almost 2 years old then we're getting two newborns by February. So my family is growing and what not. Umm... with christmas right around the corner it's crazy in this house. Well I don't know what else to write cause I'm kinda busy washing clothes and cleaning my room and watching the kids, so I'll get back to all that.
Until next time... g'day.
"Life's short take chances" |
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| Wow long time no update |
[Jul. 1st, 2005|11:45 am] |
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Well I haven't written in here for a good while. I've just been so busy with school and work and life. I have no time to even check my email. it really sucks. but things are going pretty good i guess. it could be better. my aunt passed away this sunday and her funeral was wednesday and thursday. it really hurt me alot. i'm going to miss her so much. but other than that downer, everything else is going okay. gabriel and i are almost at two and half years. my sister moved out with some guy and tamia wants to come home with us, but heather won't let her. my parents are doing pretty well other than yelling at me for everything since heather's not there to blame. oh well i better get home and take gabriel to work. oh yeah he's got 2 jobs and goes to summer school. I don't see very much other than work and on tuesday and fridays when we get to out when we can. oh well.
Until next time... g'day
"Life is a dream then you wake up to the neverending nightmare." |
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| So yeah I'm 18 |
[May. 3rd, 2005|09:58 am] |
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Yeah I'm 18 now. Hmmm..... what's new? not much. I don't feel much older. I feel pretty much the same. It's just a number. Yeah so ummmm, just a quick update. I'm doing pretty good. Very tired though. Need much sleep. Laters.
Until next time... g'day.
"Need sleep..." |
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| Boring Early Spring Break |
[Mar. 10th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
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Yeah our school is ghetto by having spring break this week and not next week, so yeah I'm bored. Umm... I thought I'd just type a few lines since everyone else but me seems to be writing in my journal. So yeah what the hell? I don't know what up with people anymore. But I really don't care either. People can say or do what they please, but don't be suprised when someone kicks their ass... no I'm not threating anyone, I'm just stating the truth about other people. Some people aren't afaid to do anything. Well I'm gonna go to bed cause I'm tired from stupid work and running around doing stuff at the store.
Until next time... g'night.
"I'm crazy, not stupid." |
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| Busy as a bee |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|03:44 pm] |
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Well things are going pretty well I guess other than the fact that I'm in so much pain right now. My back hurts pretty damn bad. School is boring as always. I'm trying to catch up on all my homework in all my classes. I'm behind on my actually paper work, but computer work I'm doing great. I love my programming class. Well I just thought I'd get a few lines in since I don't update often.
Until next time... g'day.
"I smile because I have no idea what's going on" |
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| So yeah quick update |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|01:49 pm] |
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Things are pretty good I guess. School's okay, I have two papers due this week. One that was due today but my teacher gave me an extension cause I really wasn't understanding what exactly to write. Work is eh. It's there, but not really interesting. I've been talking to my supervisor who is also in charge of the bar about becoming a cocktail waitress for the when I turn 18. He says he'll talk to the manager about it, but that most likely it'll be a yes. He's going to start teaching me all the drinks and where they are on the computer to print up tickets, so I'll be better prepared. So that means more money! Mas dinero! Yay. So yeah things are going pretty well with me.
Until next time... g'day.
"Take a chance, life's too short not to." |
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| Anonymous Noter |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|08:36 am] |
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So yeah I haven't written in a while or checked my email or anything and some asshole idiot decides to leave me jacked up notes. Look, my journal is just to be able to get things out and let my friends know how I'm doing because I know that I don't talk about my emotions or tell people anything about how I'm doing. If you don't like my journal then why the hell read it. This is MY journal and I can write about anything I want and you know what I don't give a flying rat's ass about why anyone thinks about my thoughts or my decision I make in MY life. I don't go telling anyone else what to do in there life or what they shouldn't do. I don't go judging everyone by the mistakes they've made in the past. Yeah I know I've screwed up, but I'm learning from my mistakes. And who ever this dumbass anonymous noter is hasn't learned to do that themselves. Oh and they need to grow up because if you knew me, you would know that I am mature for my age when I'm in person. Yes when I write I may write like a teenager but that's only natural. I've had to grow up quickly so let me be who I want when I write. Oh and about the age group thing, how old are you? 12? because that's what it sounds like. I don't go running around saying dumb shit on other people's journal because that's little kid shit. Obviously you are too immature to be in my age group. Grow up and learn to mind your own damn business. Most likely, I'm just guessing, that's you're a little high school student who doesn't know shit, but you know what I'm not trying to judge you on your dumbass actions, but there's no other way to. Oh and why not leave your name cause you're too afraid of being caught and what not? Yeah probably. See if you knew me, you would know that I'm a good person but of course there's people like you who just want to piss everyone off and make their life miserable because you're unhappy and you don't like the things going on in your life and you just want to pull everyone down with you. Get over yourself and grow the fuck up. |
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| First entry of the year....late |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|08:26 am] |
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So yeah I'm a little late on writing my first entry of this year but hey does it really matter? Not really... this is my journal. So yeah this new year is going okay. Some good things have happened to me so far. I'm getting what I wanted late but I'm still getting it, or should I say him. Yeah Gabriel and I are going to get back together but not yet. He's got things to settle back in school, so I'm just waiting for him. I really don't like waiting, but for this I'm willing to wait. So yeah I'm back at school and what not. I'm glad work is back to normal, no more Pamela during the week. I only have to put up with the girls on the weekend. Yes! I'm so happy. During the week work is slow and it's easy again. I'm enjoying it. So yeah I'll write more when I finish doing my work here on this stupid hard drive.
Until next time... g'day.
"Patience is a vurtue... but waiting sucks." |
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| Last entry of 2004 |
[Dec. 31st, 2004|08:48 pm] |
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So yeah this year has been pretty interesting I guess. Graduating, getting a job, having fun, losing my niece, getting drunk, going partying, getting a truck, going to school, longest relationship ending, and just so much more. There's only one thing I wish I could change this year, not losing Gabriel, hopefully next year I'll get him back. I love him so much and I want him back. but anyways 2004 was an over all good year, other than the fact that I was forced to go to a school that I didn't want to go to because of my dad and the loss of my wonderful niece. I miss my baby girl so much. We only had her here for almost two months. She was so beautiful and such a good baby. She will be missed.
Well lets see what this new year will bring me. Hopefully something good.
Until next year... g'night.
"New Years Resolution: To have a good time and with no regrets." |
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| Sickness and all.... |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|04:06 pm] |
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So yeah I haven't updated this for a while. I'm sick right now. Well not as bad as earlier today. I felt so horrible yesterday at work. I really don't know how I stayed till 2:30. I got sick very quickly. Saturday I got a slight cough, then Sunday it just hit me while i was at work. I thought I could work it off feel better, but I was seriously wrong. My back started hurting in a pain I've never felt before and I needed to sit down but every time I would go to the bar and sit in the back, stupid chevo would walk in and tell me to get back to the front, so I would like a good employee. Then I asked Lisa a few times if we could switch cause she was at the computer taking names and she was being a bitch and wouldn't get up. She was like "what's wrong with you? what have you been doing to make your back hurt? You need a doctors note." She pissed me off. So finally I was hurting so bad that I walked to the bar to go to the restroom and almost made it without crying but right as I walked into the back of the bar I just broke down. I was hurting so freakin' bad. I sat on the stairs and just cried and Julian, a supervisor, saw me and asked what was wrong and I told him and he went to chevo and asked if I could go home and he said yes. I felt horrible. I was burning up in the bar, but when I went to the front desk I got the chills. I woke up this morning with a temperature of 101.9 right now it's down to 99.1. I felt horrible this morning. I don't know. Well i'm sick and I'm very tired, so I'm going back to bed.
Until next time... g'night.
"I hate being sick!!" |
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| Band Dance.... hehehe.... |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
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Well yesterday was the band dance or should I say Fine Arts Dance. I called Ali up to see what she was doing and she told me to get my butt to holmes for the dance so I did. It was fun. I did lots of dancing as always. I danced with Ali, Jessica, Mia, Mercedes, Obie, Merry, ummm.... and lot of other people. Obie and I danced to cumbias and a kinda slow song.... it was funny cause he was singing to me and it just made me crack up. He's learning so he's doing pretty good at dancing. Then Ali, Mercedes, me, Obie, and Mia sang "I will survive" for kariokie (sp?). It was so freakin' funny. I had so much fun. I enjoyed it. I needed to go out and dance. They played so many cumbias so I was out on the dance floor whether I had a partner to dance with or not. Well I need to clean and pack my room. Oh yeah I never mentioned it in here, we're moving. How fun when I finally get my room the color I want it after about 10 years. So yeah it sucks for me.
Until next time... g'night.
"At first I was afraid I was petrified. Thinking I could never live without you by my side. Then I spent so many days thinking how you did me wrong and I grew strong and I learned how to get along..." |
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| Hi!!!!!! |
[Dec. 17th, 2004|07:49 am] |
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Well yeah for some reason I'm in a pretty good mood today. I'm here in lab doing nothing, so I decided to update. It's fun when you have nothing better to do. lalalalala.... yeah I'm kinda hyper too. Why I don't know. Yeah so I'm just rambling on. I get to watch school house rock this weekend. My friend let me borrow it. It's gonna be fun. hehehe.... I like school house. I remember when theatre did it my freshman year before I got back into theatre. School House Rock Live Jr. "I'm just a bill, yes I'm only a bill and I'm sitting here on capital hill..." "Conjuction juction what's your function...." hehehehe..... Well I need to get back to work well kinda well not really. I just need to pay some attention to this teacher. Cause he's giving me a funny look cause I'm looking at him and still typing. Yeah I always seem to get funny looks from my teacher now. They think I'm really wierd well everyone does. It's funny. I'm wierd!! Cool. I'm like the only girl left in our little group from quarter one. I'm in charge though, so it rocks. I'm the leader! yeah! hehehe.... well i better go.
Until next time... g'day.
"Eyes are the doorway to the soul, as passion is the gateway to the heart." |
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| A kiss... |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|09:40 pm] |
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Something so simple as a kiss is just so amazing. I just got back from Gabriel's house. I screwed up pretty bad yesterday by lying to him and I wanted to talk to him and tell him that I was wrong to do it and I was sorry and everything. It went pretty well. I really missed his kiss and I know I shouldn't have kissed him, but I did. I just... I needed it. Just everything I felt from his sweet tender kiss just brought back everything between us. I know we're going to work everthing out, but the question is how and when? I just... I don't want to wait anymore. We need each other so much, not physically but emotionally and mentally. Everything we had before we need it back. We were each others piller and held each other up. I love him so much. I love Gabriel and I don't want to lose him again.
Until next time... g'night.
"A rose by any other name would smell just as sweet." |
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| what's wrong with me |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|08:00 pm] |
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i don't know what has been wrong with me lately. i've just been so out of it. i can't take it anymore and now it's showing more than ever. people are starting to notice that something's wrong with me. i've never been this obvious before. i don't like it. i don't like how i am now. i'm so vunerable to crying and anger and becoming overwhelmed. what's wrong with me? maybe i do need psychiatric help or something. i just don't know anymore. i mean what am supposed to do? i know i have problems but i don't know what kind and what i should be doing to fix them or anything. i'm just tired of being like this, feeling like this. i'm just tired.... of everything.
until next time... g'night.
"i hide my tears behind closed doors." |
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| What do I do |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|07:45 pm] |
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What do I do
i don't know what to do anymore
everything is just getting to me.
i'm lost and confused,
i'm overwhelmed and sleep deprived.
i just want to curl in a ball
and cry my eyes out.
what am i supposed to do?
i feel so alone with no where to go.
i need to scream,
i need to shout,
i just need to get this all out.
~D.M. |
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| Well..... |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|08:29 am] |
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Well things are still crazy at home and I don't know what to do there, but relationship wise, things are still pretty crappy but getting better. Gabriel and I are actually talking and working things out. So we're not together and we're not together working it out, I guess we're working it out together. Yeah kinda confusing. I'm glad though. Well I think things will turn out well. We just need to work on our communication and give each other space. I need to stop typing while my teacher is talking.
Until next time... g'day.
"Love conquers all" |
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| I can't do it anymore |
[Dec. 8th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
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I just can't do it anymore. I'm tired of it. My parents don't know what they're doing to me. I mjst need to get out of this damn house. My dad doesn't understand that I need to be able to talk to people and get things out. I can't keep all these damn emotions in. Go to a shrink? Fine by me, I'd love to go to a shrink, just to have hime tell me that I have problems that I already know I have. What the hell does he think he's saying? I know I have problems and I don't need someone else telling me. My dad is being an ass. I don't know why he said that, but I just need someone to talk to someone to just listen to me and what not and that's what Cesar was doing. I just don't know. I can't stand my dad. He can just be an ass. I can't wait to get out of the damn house. What am I supposed to do whith all this information in my mind and all these thoughts that I don't want. I need to get out already!!! |
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| Stuff |
[Dec. 5th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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~Firsts~
First Best Friend - Savannah Marie Sanchez
First Real Memory of Something - spinning on my merry-go-round
First Job - babysitter (if you don't consider that a job then Bill Millers)
First Screen Name - Nelafreak42687 (yeah i've had it since I was 13)
First Funeral - I don't remember
First Pet - Blue, my dog when I was 2
First Credit Card - does debit card count?
First Enemy - myself
First BIG Trip - to Michigan when i was 6
First Boyfriend - Joshua Wallace when I was 16
First Kiss - Angel Garcia, my best friend, and it was a dare
First Favorite Song - ummm.... new kids on the block "the right stuff"
~Lasts~
Last Cigarette - never had one
Last Big Car Ride - from san antonio to Cali
Last Kiss - umm... a week ago from my gay friend Daniel cause he said he owed me one
Last Good Cry - good cry? hmm... about a month ago. Last cry... yesterday
Last Library Book Checked Out - mmm... something on mystery
Last Movie Seen - The incredebles
Last Beverage Drank - bourbon and coke
Last Food Consumed - icecream cake
Last Crush - Andrew
Last Time Showered - 30 minutes ago
Last Time you wore shoes - do flip-flops count? if so now.
Last CD played - pink- misunderstood
Last Item Bought - Wendy's
Last Annoyance - Pam!!!!
Last Soda Drank - coke
Last Time Wanting to Die - two years ago thrusday.
Last Time Scolded - 5 minutes ago for not closing my mom's door
Last Shirt Worn - i'm wearing my pj shirt
Last Website Visited - livejournal
I Am... - Daniella Andrea M.
I think... - too many damn confusing things
I know... - what I want out of life
I want... - to be happy again
I have... - so much to gain out of life
I miss... - being happy
I hear... - so many thought running through my mind
I wonder... - how long it will take for things to get back to normal
I care... - about my friends
I always... - think about what I did to screw up
I am not... - your average girl
I will... - do my best at everything
I listen... - to what people have to tell me
Thirteen random things you like...
1. Blue Roses
2. stars
3. carebears
4. swimming
5. dancing
6. pressed pennies
7. earrings
8. letters
9. drawing
10. books
11. moons
12. quotes
13. wind up globes/jewerly boxes
Nine movies you like:
1. dirty dancing
2. dirty dancing havana nights
3. grease
4. 10 things i hate about you
5. 13 going on 30
6. blade
7. Aladdin
8. casablanca
9. dance with me
Eleven good bands/artists...
1. dashboard confessions
2. bowling for soup
3. system of a down
4. linkin park
5. ummm
6. I
7. don't
8. know
9. who
10. else
11. cow!
Nine things you can't live without...
1. God
2. air
3. water
4. food
5. knowledge
6. paper
7. pencil
8. words
9. music
Eight favorite foods/drinks...
1. milk chocolate
2. coca cola
3. grapes
4. pasta
5. chocolate icecream
6. tortillas
7. margaritas
8. bourbon and coke
9. green apples
Seven things you wear daily...
1. bra
2. panties
3. shirt
4. pants
5. worry ring
6. earrings
7. nosering
Six of your closest friends
1. Angel
2. Ali
3. Joel
4. Daniel
5. Danielle
6. Erica
Five things you touch every day...
1. cell phone
2. worry ring
3. computer
4. glasses
5. makeup
Four shows you watch...
1. Alias
2. Lost
3. Less than Perfect
4. George Lopez
Three celebrities you have a crush on...
1. John Leguiazamo
2. George Clooney
3. ummm.... I can't think of anyone else
One person you could spend the rest of your life with...
1. the one person I can't have right now... Gabriel. |
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